Wrote her a love note.
Delighted, she said, How cute,
And then gave it back.
I met Mike this past weekend for a Sunday afternoon at eating out, Ikea, and coffee. We were going to meet at a sandwich/pizza place called Mellow Mushroom to start off. Mike, his gf, and our VPVG friend (not the VPVG I know) got there before me. When I walked in, the hostess saw me and said,
“Hey, I remember you!”
“You do?” I asked, alpha game totally on point.
“Yeah, you’re the ‘little Asian guy’ your friend said would show up.”
First of all, Mike described me as “the little Asian guy.” Secondly, this girl validated that description.
Is it ever going to be worth it?
In a desperate effort to motivate myself to hit heavier lifts, I have started listening to music to reach a higher level of excitation. I am now the equivalent of the guy who has ear buds in listening to shitty death metal squatting to a high box in knee wraps and Chucks, all at a fucking 24 Hour Fitness.
And I am not even listening to “amped up” music, even in terms of EDM.
^ This song is not very “hard,” but emotionally it reminds me of when I was 19 and trying so hard to be noticed by a girl who didn’t care that I existed.
I’m just trying to be cool
It’s all because of you”
just awakens a part of me that LITERALLY makes me want to blow my brains out, but instead I get amped up to miss a 240lbs snatch.
I did my final volume squat set to
which, again, ISN’T very exciting, but at 2:18 when Erlend starts to say (literally SAY as he doesn’t actually sing) “If you want me show some COURAGE COURAGE COURAGE COURAGE” it reminded me that I don’t have any and my self-hatred fueled each rep with a frothing, turgid desperation.
Feel free to share your non-motivating motivational workout songs in the comments.